Addiction compared to relationships. Never taken anything too seriously esp. when you are young. Things tend to fall apart faster that way. And such addictions can damage everything you hoped for (whether it be drugs or a relationship). I find myself just being myself. I always found myself lost in it all. To wrapped up in it. Most of my life until I was 18 I was heavily medicated from basic stuff like Adderal Ritalin to anti psychotics and anti depressants and Lithium. I though I would have had an addiction to at least some of those drugs since I started out on a lot of the stuff in kindergarten. When I turned 18 I got off all of it and tried to surpass the drugs. Being so heavily medicated for so long it was a new experience to be without it. Emotions were rampant I didn't know how to go about understanding them and I found myself getting hurt quite a few times and even hurting others. I find myself still with the desire of a relationship and trying to keep it going. After so many failures I hope to keep this one for a while.