I am not the same as I once was a few months ago. I have grown tired both mentally and physically. I've hit a moment in time where everything just clicked in my head and instead of unnecessary emotion dictating my actions I began to think of more reasonable course of actions. This world we live in is chaotic and emotions are so unstable to dwell to deep into any of them so quickly is a self inflicting pain to come.Relationships are unnecessary at this point in my life. Yeah they can teach you things, but I believe I have learned enough.I need to focus upon MY goals and MY dreams. No matter what has happened tin the past or what hatred I may bare. I have one goal, to better myself and live a refreshing rest of my life. And to those with vengeful thoughts. Revenge is best served by living well. But I would more so like to leave everything I had relationship wise behind and start over from scratch. First thing first comes my education. Once I move up in the world I can start looking into those of equal stature, instead of what I have dealt with. It is unnecessary and for the most part bullshit. Everybody is out for themselves and are out to take. So why bother. Some people don't grow up so even after college I am not expecting anything. It would be nice but if I'm alone I'm alone. On the bright side I can go anywhere without issues. I've always wanted to go to Ireland, Scotland, and Germany. Yeah that would be nice.